carling’s

yay i’m in back in kch again! gAwd how much this place has changed these 3 years .. except for the clubbing scenes and the shopping malls.. gotta work on that.BIG TIME =/.

anyways, comin back to kch, met with a few friends (that i wasn’t really fond of in the past) made me realize that .. ppl never change after living in a big city, i thought i could ‘handle’ all types of ppl. but it turned out… i couldn’t. it was really a big disappointment when i felt that i couldn’t handle the pressure. *sighz* It also made me realize that u can’t have too many best friends..

that’s y i absolutely LURVVVEE and MISSsS my best friends.. wherever they are.. they are the ppl who will always be there for me, never get mad at me no matter wat i do, understand me, criticise me in front.. friends i feel i could joke around with w/o any pressure at all. MISS YEWWW !! :/

all in all, it’s been rewarding knowing that i’m still myself.. and i love myself the way i am. nobody can change me.. ya’ll da bitches out there, thank you for making me realize that… i’m never gonna be like u ;p NEVER EVER EVER!

ok.. how do i fucking change my foto in this blog? who said this blog thing was idiotproof ha??????? stoopid idiot!

spend all ur time waiting
for that second chance
for a break that would make it ok   
there’s always some reason   
to feel not good enough
and it’s hard at the end of the day
i need some distraction
oh beautiful release
memory seeps from my veins
let me be empty
and weightless and maybe
i’ll find some peace tonight

in the arms of an angel
fly away from here
from this dark cold hotel room
and the endlessness that u fear
you are pulled from the wreckage
of your silent reverie
you’re in the arms of an angel
may u find some confort there .. =)

Universe inside of your heart
u gotta let me know
so u can be free baby
u wanted it so much
and now that it’s over
u don’t know wat u want

put time in a capsule
two minds consensual
entwined to perfection
if we could.. oh if we could..

cuddle up close lay on my chest now
listen my heartbeats comin down
if u get tired, u close ur eyes now
when u wake up, i won’t be found

Coz it’s a bittersweet symphony that’s life…   
tryin ta make ends meet
you’re a slave to the money then u die
you know the one that takes u to the places where all the veins meet

no change i can change, i can change
but i’m here in my mould, i am here in my mould
and i’m a million different ppl from one day to the nex
i can change my mould.. noNOnoNonoNO