carling’s

i..

1. don’t do laundry

2. don’t do financial planning

3. don’t like staying home

3. can’t cook for shit

4. have commitment issues

5. don’t suck up to in-laws

6. don’t believe in the love ever after shit

7. don’t like sharing my closet

8. love my own space and freedom (late nights in particular)

9. don’t have time for children / babies

10. cannot sit still even for a minute (unless i’m playing dota or something)

So STOP asking me when i’m getting married! sien.

An American consultant was at the pier of a small coastal Mexican village when a small boat with just one fisherman docked. Inside the small boat were several large yellowfin tuna. The American complimented the Mexican on the quality of his fish and asked how long it took to catch them.

The Mexican replied, "Only a little while."

The American then asked, "Why don’t you stay out longer and catch more fish?

The Mexican said, "Well, I catch enough to feed my family."

The American then asked, "But what do you do with the rest of your time?" The Mexican fisherman said, "I sleep late, fish a little, play with my children, take siesta with my wife, Maria, stroll into the village each evening where I sip wine and play guitar with my amigos, I have a full and busy life, senor."

The American scoffed, "I am a Harvard graduate and could help you. You should spend more time fishing and with the proceeds, buy a bigger boat with the proceeds from the bigger boat you could buy several boats eventually you would have a fleet of fishing boats. Instead of selling your catch to a middleman you would sell directly to the processor, eventually opening your own cannery. You would control the product, processing and distribution. You would need to leave this small coastal fishing village and move to Mexico City, then LA and eventually NYC where you will run your expanding enterprise."

The Mexican fisherman asked, "But senor, how long will this all take?"

To which the American replied, "15-20 years."

"But what then, senor?"

The American laughed and said, "That’s the best part. When the time is right you would announce an IPO and sell your company stock to the public and become very rich, you would make millions."

"Millions, senor? Then what?"

The American said, "Then you would retire. Move to a small coastal fishing village where you would sleep late, fish a little, play with your kids, take siesta with your wife, stroll to the village in the evenings where you could sip wine and play your guitar with your amigos."

If you still have the chance, that is .

Extracted from rojaks.blogspot.com  =P

my first few hours of 2008 sucked big time!

the original plan was to celebrate with my beloved bunch of colleagues. BUT, something more important came up. a wadevafrend (i can’t say they are my frens) had a birthday coming up.. OKAY. fine.

So fetching arrangements were made. The birthday was sapos to be held at THE CURVE. everything was ready, we even had frens there at 6pm on standby to reserve us a table. see? my wadevafrend face VERY THE BIG. got event organizer lagi! and all across kl and pj, frens were comin to the curve latest by 9pm. me and my guy were to leave my colleagues place at 930pm and arrive at the curve by 10pm. (taking into account the jam that day). Only to arrive at 1130pm. Reason?

BCOS WADEVAFREN N HIS SOULMATE (U2 TOTALLY DESERVE EACH OTHER UGH) DECIDED TO HAVE AN ARGUMENT AGAIN! THAT NIGHT.

Impact? Fetching arrangements were screwed, party was screwed, there was no cake. no clubbing. no birthday celebration hell no! only a bunch of angry frens who took it out on each other blaming the wrong person. all thanks to wat? one stupid repetitious meaningless fight.

so that nite, after a good nite’s sleep. i decided to forget it and be forgiveful of other ppl’s mistakes. Being forgiveful ppl with big hearts, my guy decided that this wadevafren, however an asshole he is, should not deserve to celebrate his birthday alone. 2 Jan was the birthdate. frens had to again, travel from parts from kl to give this wadevafren FACE again. (I had to. but i was giving my guy face.)

So, there was cake and everyone was waiting for wadevafren to show up. finally he did, with his popular soulmate. fine. i sabar lagi.

An argument occured. due to my inability to control my fuming temper and her airheadedwhines, the conversation was like this:

(since it was his birthday, i decided to have a little fun)

Annoyed me: hey wat song did u say we shud sing jes now KIT?  neh, the four letter chinese word song ahhh…

KIT: (very very paisei and jes kept drinking his guiness)

Annoyed me: neh the liang jing ru popular song arrr! four words one~~

(ok i admit, i was pushing it)

Whinysoulmate: fen shou kuai le lor. y don u jes say it out loud.  (with a hint of behsongness in her tone) (forgot to say, they jes announced they’ve broken up.. again.. but then i don buy it.)

Annoyed me: WHY, how clever of you. YES it’s that song!

Whinysoulmate: ya well, u have no business in our relationship, u dono anything about us.

Annoyed me: haha. no i don’t and i don’t fucking plan to , bcos it’s apparently none of my crap business and u shudn’t be talkign bout it. BUT now i wana talk about how ur fucking arguments are affecting our life.

Whiny soulmate cutting in: yes u haf no business in our relationship, u dono how he treats me, how sanfu i am (half crying)

(observe how she goes on and on about the relationship and tells us iwe’ve got nobusiness in it.. crazy bitch who’s already 27 acting like an 8 in denial i tell u) (grow up la. i’m sien of ur crying aledy. shesh)

fine. u get to cry. u get the be the pitiful-oh-she-bully-me one. i let u cry la. and i’ll be bigbadwolf. boohoo. pfft. pathetic~

Thus, she runs away into the road (too bad no car coming) and the wadevafren goes after her. sigh. so romantic.

the party ended with an sms from wadevafren:

"Y did u guys hafta do this ? u guys really do not pretty lor" (cantonese translation: zou dak em leng)

FUCk u lar wadevafren, u thk every1 so free like ur bimbogf. we hold party for u, organize all those fucking stuff for u ? i lose my bonding time bcos of u. macaohai, ur stupid arguments so big until can cover the sky isit!? KNNCCB! ur relationship so important until ur frens don matter anymore! and this is not the first time ur stupid argument affected my life which i’m not gonna say here cos it’s too lengthy. (they made me homeless)

I hate it when ppl are so stupid and they affect me. tHERE will be no next time. nonononono~

also, i would like to take this opportunity to apologize to my fellow colleagues. yes, i deserve this, i shouldn’t haf ffk. no next time. no.

ok, steam is half gone. i shall gallop back to work now. pretending like nothing happened.

till then… *sabar~~~

:(((((( Christmas has come and gone (*double pout*) :(((((((

I will miss those snowy decos and happy carols~ playing them now jus no-feel anymore laaa. sigh.

Anyways, there’s still chinese new year to look forward to. ^^ dong dong dong qiang. bakgua n kch food! drool :o~~~

Ended up gaining weight this xmas. >O who would’ve thot after all the walking ,shopping and spicytomyam in phuket would result in buying double the amount of titbits and downing them all once u’re back??? i so need to work out! ugh. i need some discipline!

Came back to the office to find…….. reality is still a pain in the ass… -.-

bleh. Pictures from phuket will be uploaded soon. now, i’m jes too lazy.

I’M BORED!!!!!

Sitting, typing, air-conditioning, working BORING! urgh..

BUT after today ^^ it’s gonna get pretty interesting.

Gonna go get my man+pedicure later (which’ll cost around 70RM) for the annual dinner tomoro.

After tomoro’s half day work *snicker* we’ll be then goin for makeup,hair-setups.. etc.. (which costs surprisingly cheap for RM60, cheap right.. but dono the outcome yet so dono worth it or not).

But ya know, adding up all the little stuff, not including the dress, heels and accessories . i’ve already spent over RM100. *pout* That’s the reason us girls skip annual dinners. (boh hua le have to pay everything ourselves *pout*)

okays, finally lunch time! how the hell does one hour drag on for so long… -.-

oh yeah~ p/s. will be absent from msia from 19-26 Dec.2007

—> i’m going to phuket! yooohooo~~ i love christmas ! **

It’s friday. at last..

This weekend, shall be different! I shall catch up with my long lost frens, bitch and whine about the old times, go shop, drink, dance, spend, singk, drink and get drunk again..  hokay, mebe not this weekend (monday no need to work arh?) mebe can divide into several weekends.. hehe

sigh.. how i miss college life. if only time had a rewind button.. (okay i shall stop reminiscing! *i think i spelled wrongly?*)

Anyways, back to wat to do with weekends. I WANT TO MEET MY OLD FRIENDS. miss them so so much. So sorry i’ve been MIA - missing in action these few months. feels like it has been so long. and i hate driving in kl. stupid signboards that can be seen only when u’re right infront of it and it’s too late to turn to the correct exit. bleh. I hate driving. makes me even lazier to go out. see.. got reason one ok..

SO! this week, IKEA / pavillion, or jes stay home watch the stack of DVDs i bought from penang last week le???

Daphne’s busy with her stupid bowling tournament (never knew she bowled *scoff*), sheaulipalohmonkey is prob busy with ACCA tuition (boringggggzzzz), Yuin Shin.. oh YA ho.. that cha boh still hafn’t stopped clubbing. hehe. i still got one more clubbing kaki left ^^

YUINSHIN! call u later.

back to work. 2 more hours till dinner with daffnyduck.

No matter what you say about love
I keep coming back for more
Keep my hand in the fire
Sooner or later I get what I’m asking for

No matter what you say about life
I learn every time I bleed
The truth is a stranger
Soul is in danger I gotta let my spirit be free
To admit that I’m wrong and then change my mind
Sorry but I have to move on and leave you behind..

I can’t waste time so give it a moment
I realize nothings broken
No need to worry about everything I’ve done
Live every second like it was my last one
Don’t look back got a new direction
I loved you once, needed protection

You’re still a part of everything I do
You’re on my heart just like a tattoo
Just like a tattoo
I’ll always have you..

Ever had ppl whisper and point wherever u go? Even if u can’t hear or see, u noe they despise and criticise u for wat u’re worth.

I’m used to that kind of treatment.

BUT This time, my head is no longer upright, pride n dignity is has long abandoned me. Instead, i just wish u put a bullet in my head for wat this is all worth.

So this is how it feels to live in sinfulness..
I cannot say i’m sorry, it doesn’t do any good any how. But wat i can say is, thank you. for ur hurting. for ur tears. for ur memories. Bcos of u, i finally know how it feels to be the weak defeated one.

Whenever ppl ask me :"Watchu doin sunday??"

Me:  Church

Ppl: (pauses for a moment then a face full of curiousity) REALLY?? i    never knew u were a Christian.

Me: Well.. now u do.. -.-

Christians got look wan meh? Christians don’t drink don’t club don swear one meh?

Pissed.  -.-

i don’t wear no freakin cross necklace for show k? pissed again -.-

-Amen-

最近发生了好多愉快和不愉快的事，这些事，是我这一辈子想都没想过会发生在我身上的。偏偏，就这样发生了。

我伤了一个，对我来说，在我生命里扮演一个很重要角色的人。他教了我好多，也让我学会了爱自己的许多人生道理。可以说，是一个百分之百的终生好伴侣。跟他在一起，我知道控制，很有安全感，也很清楚自己人生的目标。应该说，生活里是没有好担忧的。

然而，我放弃了这种生活。很多亲朋好友都念，你自己的生命，要对自己负责，感觉好像自己做错了选择。可是，这个选择，我没有后悔过，因为，这一切都对他太不公平了。而且，也觉得自己太紧张的又决定了另外一个开始。

这次的决定，不但影响了许多人，也影响了自己的未来。有时，感觉好像在拿自己的生命来开玩笑。

新的决定，让我有了许多不曾有过的感触。开心的时候，好开心，但是，伤心的时候，却变成一个完全控制不住的人。这个人，我不认识，我觉得很恐怖，因为跟以前的自己是完全相反的。就因为这样，对自己已完全没有了自信心，没有了自尊。弄得自己每次都怀疑，这一切，值得吗？

现在已到了感情高潮的顶端，理智一直对自己说是时候面对现实。之前觉得好多地方相似的人，突然又发现到在好多现实因素之下，突然又出现了好多不合适的地方。很想对自己说，拥有爱，就够了！好愚蠢。真希望自己做一个愚蠢的人，至少会活得比较开心。

哎，真是他妈的，得到了自己的报应。

终于知道，这种感觉，并不是说，要控制，就可以控制的。